I posted an audio note on Super Bowl Sunday. In that note, I talked about the champion mindset and related a time in my life, where I felt that I had that. It was extremely candid and with all that it took from me, it truly made an indelible impression on my life moving forward.


There are consecutive beginnings and endings. There are elements that may overlap, but in general, change is the constant variable. My time in the kink culture was a really intense time. It was overwhelming sexually and emotionally charged, almost all of the time. A desire to want more, learn more, be more. Constant pleasure, yearning and pressure.

And then one day, I just stopped. I walked away. Closed that chapter. When I talk to other people who found themselves giving their blood, sweat and tears to something, the commonality that the end of a chapter is just that. There is no pomp and circumstance.


I have had enough crazy adventures in a short time span to know that trajectories in life are rarely smooth and straightforward. Perhaps, in my case, that was deliberate?

In my favorite book, The Alchemist, there is a quote, ” Don’t give in to your fears. If you do, you won’t be able to talk to your heart.”

Music mood: Lionel Ritchie “Easy Like Sunday Morning”

I'm a writer and a lover not a fighter, except if I really want something.

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