It is safe to say that at some point in our lives we will experience true heartbreak. A loss in one form or another. The kind of heartbreak that physically fatigues you, otherwise known as despair. When people are talking, you hear their voices but you aren’t listening, not because you don’t care what they have to say, but because you can’t quite concentrate on the words. In those moments, it feels like you are in a time warp; a 5 minute conversation, feels like hours.
Now a brief pause for a lesson in Biology…
The heart, in its anatomical make-up, is technically already broken (well, for my dramatic purposes at least, but a Cardiologist would correct me and say the chambers are separated). The heart is the centerpiece for our circulatory system, constantly pumping blood through a network of vessels. The right side receives the nutrient deficient blood that has already done a pass through the body, including your dynamic brain, and sends it over to your lungs for a refresh of O2. Then, blood pumps back to the left side of your heart, which then returns oxygen rich blood back to all of our greedy little organs. Rinse. Repeat. Rinse. Repeat….
But wait, there is a metaphor in here somewhere, I promise…
In understanding the engine of our body, we come to realize that you can’t have one without the other. The feeling of great loss underscores the bounty of love. Our vulnerability is the system that allows us to experience those emotions, again and again in one lifetime.
The greatest losses in my life – my grandmother passing, and two romantic relationships- one which was a sudden death and one that was a break-up, while utterly painful, those desperate emotions were the fuel, the oxygen, that strengthened my vulnerable side. A sense of loss, now found. Death and the resurrection of life.
Indeed these emotions pushed me through the vessels of vulnerability, picking up the necessary nutrients of peace, joy and most importantly hop. A deluge of emotion that would fuel the another day with more wonderful moments to both remember and create. I was blessed to have bonds that were so close and strong, they were, almost, heartbreaking.
Music mood: Brent Cobb “Lavenders and Loving Gestures”
the 4 chambers xo