I love the term “ugly pretty” because to me it means unique. I interpret the meaning as something that aesthetically is different enough that it makes you question whether or not it truly is beautiful. We all have an “ugly” side. Imperfect. Perhaps a chapter we wish would remain unread. We stress over things we can’t control. We judge ourselves and others, even though we like to believe we don’t. Inside of each and every one of us lies a bit of smugness.
Rationally, we expect everyone to have weaknesses. Yet we hide them because while we remain aware of our faults we don’t want a constant reminder. The idea of “fake it ’til you make it” seems to be the mantra du jour. A cushion between our intention and reality.
While I don’t think you need to flaunt what you feel challenged by, I don’t see the problem in giving it breathing space. It can be the impetus to asking yourself the tough questions which we tend to purposely ignore. It is true my writing can often be deep and introspective. In fact, I truly love sharing that part of myself with you.
The conversation you have with yourself should be an honest one. Every moment in life we are making choices. Therefore, it would seem that the odds are stacked against us that the majority of those choices will be the “right” decision.
Do not dwell. Ugly pretty is still beautiful. The wrong decisions still fulfill a purpose.
Music mood: Bob Marley ” Three little birds”
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