I got angry recently. It wasn’t an isolated incident. However, I don’t want to focus so much on the circumstances but rather what I learned from it. I suspect we all have our immature and less than graceful moments. I reflected on it and ask myself, “how could I be so immature in that moment?” I wasn’t only hurting the other person but I was hurting me too. I got carried away with my words and before you know it, I had exhausted the emotions.
They physics of anger have a unique dynamic. The amount of energy output far exceeds any positive result. The result leaves can leave you feeling physically exhausted and is a huge drain on your cerebral resources. It is an emotion that proves little to no value if measured by its productivity. And why would I want to waste any resources on something that would not yield a positive outcome?
I strive hard in the area of self-improvement and reflection. I want to nurture my relationships, regardless of their nature, creating a safe, positive and fulfilling environment. And when I’m angry I am not doing that. Perhaps that is why apologies are so important…but only if you can correct the behavior.
Forgiveness takes fortitude.
Music mood: Jimmy Buffet “stranded on a sandbar”