Although I don’t miss my old corporate life at all, I do miss the need to keep up with the latest in trends in technology, digital media and the things that affect my client’ business.
I’m ashamed to admit that I’m scared. The idea of really challenging my brain, working my cranial muscle in a different way is intimidating. Writing a business plan is virgin territory. A marketing plan? No problem. A creative story? Easy. Articulately underscoring a scalable, monetizable future to be evaluated by people whose job it is to evaluate your worth on an impression? I admit it makes me nervous and there aren’t many things that do. I’ve stopped and started plans. Often I would get stuck and admittedly, be too embarrassed to ask for help. I’m not afraid to ask for help anymore.
Its funny, I used to think that merely being around the “right people” would get me where I need to be, that the magic they possessed would be contagious.
True story: I had the opportunity to interview my idol, Guy Kawasaki, after he wrote his book, Enchantment. As a venture capitalist, early Apple software sales rep evangelist and a Godfather to early stage tech start-ups, I always looked up to him for his ability to make things happen yet still manage to maintain humility and a great sense of humor. Pre-interview, I asked if he would sign and take a picture wearing a stiletto I would send him. He asked me to send it to his home address joking that his would definitely be asking questions. lol A couple of days before the interview, the box arrived with the signed shoe, and a signed copy of his book saying ” Resisting you is futile!” When I asked, during our interview, what the secret to his success was, he merely said ” Grinding it out.”
I have reminded myself that quenching the your thirsty long-term goals and vision through discipline will only lead to a well of resources and later success.
I’m thirsty again.
your kinky courtesan xx